ONE OF THE HARDEST DAYS OF MY LIFE

The day I was dreading finally arrived a few weeks ago, the day Donowit's adoptive mom would arrive. It was a Monday morning and I was heading upstairs to put my bags away when I passed two woman on the stairs. I knew one of them was her mom. They were headed to court and had let the two children up in the family room. I decided to spend the morning with her so we had breakfast, went outside to play and had just come in for water when her mom arrived. She stood in the doorway and called her by her new name, Donowit did not respond so she asked if she had forgotten her already. At that time one of the woman adopting a baby brought her daughter over and said here you are going to need someone to cuddle. When Donowit was picked up by her mom and started screaming I could not hold back my tears. I handed the baby back and headed to the bathroom, leaving the room made her scream louder. I cried for a while and composed myself. When I came back into the room I sat there like I was in shock. A few moments later they came back and I began crying again so headed to the bathrooma and of course she started screaming. Then I wept like never before. Once composed again I went back into the room and the other mom asked if I had Donowit as they had explain our relationship and she was looking for me. When she found me she handed her to me, she snuggled in and fell right to sleep. Her mom and I began a conversation that went on for a couple of hours. I also downloaded my photos onto her laptop (over 150). The past few weeks have been up and down. I am thrilled she has a home and a family but I will miss her like nothing else. She is my heart running around Kidane. I am not sure how she crept into my heart so quickly but I am blessed for the time I was given to get to know this amazing little girl. Last week when her mom ran out I heard her down the hall screaming as she was being dropped of in the playroom. One of the nuns brought her to me and she got quite and crawled into my lap. She ended up helping me build a mobile and having lunch together. I then got to rock her to sleep, I will miss this so much because it was the begining of our connection. Today I also got to spend a bit of time with her as her mom went out again. She is an amazing little girl and I pray I keep in contact with her throughout the years.