DONOWIT HAS LEFT

It turned out the day her mom arrived was not the hardest day but rather the day she left. It was nice in the fact that when I arrived she was in the baby room so she spent the morning with me. She went upstairs just after lunch. When I finished my lunch her mom asked if I wanted to spend some time alone with her. Of course I did so we played, blew bubbles, chatted and just sat in silence at times. She ended up falling asleep in my arms, which I will miss terribly. Her mom asked if I wanted to dress her one last time which I did. I was happy she was asleep as I thought it may be an easier break but when her mom put her jacket on she woke up. I was so not ready to hand her over but had to so I started crying and gave her a few kisses and handed her to her mom. She began crying but I had to just walk away. I know God has a plan for children for me but Donowit got into my heart and it was so hard to let her go. I really wanted to walk around to think and process this change but it was pouring out so I came home and crawled into bed and cried for over an hour. I then decided I needed to get out because all of my housemates were out of town I went out to dinner. A friend asked if I wanted to go to a movie that evening so I did we walked home afterwards and I was able to talk about a lot, thank you my friend I could not have gotten through this without you. The next day we went out of town for the day and we ended up at a church where I wept and left some things I no longer wish to carry with me up there. Good bye Donowit you will be missed at Kidane and by me always, I love you!!!